LivingSouL

I arrived at school at about 2:20pm I attended my class like nothing happend, sat down, listened on the lessons like i was takin’ it in, smiling at my classmates while checking our work yesterday, even yelled because the teacher released us early, acting like nothing happend. After all my classes, I wanted to divert myself from this sadness and hurting within me, so I played Freestyle Online and won 90% of the rounds i played, from 7,650th position down to 3450th shooting outside, from 20% upto 51% 3-point shooting, from level16 to level18. I played well tonight. But when I was on my way home, I can’t take away my sadness and hurting I am going through. Because of what happend earlier, I felt like something part of me was ripped from me. A very big part of my life is like taken away from me because of my actions.. NOw, I don’t know what to do… I kept on thinking of what to do to bring back a very important part of me… I even cried at my room thinking about it… I am sad… But still im trying to divert myself… Keeping myself man enough…  *sigh* I dont know what am i sayin now… :’( I just feel sad… Praying…. :’(

i think of myself as a stupid person
all i did was to stupify myself on
some things that a serious man
shouldnt do to his world man

i feel stupid now that i have done such things
i fully regret those things
regret that made my life so sad
made myself mad to what i’ve had

what should i do to make you happy
what should i do to erase those on me
because of what i have done
i made my world gone

this is what im thinkin’ these days
good, bad either ways
im such a stupid guy
a guy that you must not buy

what am i sayin’ here
i dont belong here
stupidity, stupidity
go away from my life slowly!

oh Lord, help me God
save me from my stupid flood
i kneel down at your feet
forgiveness i have to meet

im sorry, im sorry too Jesus
for i have sinned from you both
i know it’s hard to fogive, hard to forget
but let me show to you things that ive changed

thank you for your forgiveness
all those stupidity and madness
all flused away from my world slowly
spirit refreshed and cleaned wholely

how can i end this
i’ve never wrote poems like this
all i can think of is forgive me
forgive me, forgive me and forgive me

i bow to you now with my new year’s vow
crying to you loud with my new year’s vow
to be more serious and God fearing now
help me and comfort me with my vow

nothing really! I mean, i don’t know what to say.. yeah… i don’t really know.. i’m havin’ really hard time about this issue… i don’t know, i just wanna let it out! out! out! what if!!? huh? what if…. youuuu, and i don’t know…. i don’t know if it necessary to do this! is it?! i mean i’m your… aahhhhh… and readin’, knowin’ that… haaay…. ..  …. . .. . . . . . .. . . .. . . . . . . . .  . . . . . . . . . . . . . world…

forgive me Lord… I’m sorry Lord, I’m jst jealous….

If you know my old blog, visit it… I don’t want to post it here kasi… hint, diablo.

Yehey! We found a working program that boots a YM user! Hehehehe.. Tested talaga! asteeegggg!!!

I have created my blog na! Hehehe.. Well, nothin fancy in here, just see my album instead aight?

LivingSouL